Friday, October 1, 2010

Tomorrow we bury our son...

Not a title I would have ever expected to write in my lifetime. Nevertheless, everything is set for tomorrow morning at 10:30. I haven't planned a thing, this is happening as a result of some calls made by my wonderful mother in law (all the way from Ireland) and a lot of follow up by my husband. I wanted it done, but I couldn't bring myself to do any part of it. However, Kieran totally stepped up to the plate and I will be forever grateful to him for that. I knew I married an awesome guy, but it's times like this when you see the awesomeness at work that I feel so very lucky to have him in my life.

It will just be Kieran, me and a priest - that's how we want it. One of the Catholic cemeteries in Niles (a suburb close to Chicago) has a place especially for babies. We will get a small headstone and hopefully it will get done before the ground freezes, otherwise we'll have to wait until spring.

I have never been one to go to a cemetery to visit after the funeral. I don't know if I will change my tune now, but even if I don't (or can't), knowing Daniel is somewhere where I can find him makes me feel a little more at peace.

6 comments:

Nic said...

I Love you!!!!!

Misty said...

You're constantly in my thoughts and prayers. Love you guys.

Allison said...

I am so sorry, Sarah. You're in my prayers during this difficult time.

Megan Kane said...

thinking of you today....

Julie and Luke said...

Sarah, Luke and I are so sorry for your loss. Daniel will always be part of your family, your memories and your life. You are, and always will be, a wonderful mom to him. We are praying for you and Kieran.

Alyssa Cabrera said...

thinking of you with love and tears in my eyes!