First of all, I know I am blogging more than I had been the past few months. I am doing it partially to let my family and friends who read this know I'm doing ok (my sense of self-importance has gone nowhere, as we can all see! ha!). I am also doing it because I think it helps me to "write out" some of my thoughts and feelings.
Today was my first day back to work since I got the worst news of my life. Two Wednesdays ago, I left for a doctor's appointment, fully intending on coming back to work afterwards, and didn't go back until a week and a half later. Today, my desk was a hot mess. :) Desk aside, it wasn't too bad coming back. Minimal tears. I sort of hyperventilated walking into the front doors because I knew I was going to have some 'splaining to do for some people and I was dreading even talking about it. But after a few quick deep breaths and a few sips of my triple grande pumpkin spice latte, I once again had my game face on. The support and kind words from my co-workers was so great. I had tears again, but they were of the grateful variety. Grateful that I had so many people who thought about me, about us, and who truly wanted to make coming back easier on me. I was so grateful. Can I say grateful again? Is there any other word to describe it? I don't know. What I do know is that I hope to be that kind of friend if someone ever needs it.
So overall, today was a good day.
5 comments:
So glad today was a success and I'm confident that you already are "that kind of friend" when anyone needs you. It will probably feel good to be back at work again tomorrow and into a normal routine. Hope tomorrow is another good day for you!
Thank you for all the blog updates. It helps me to feel a little closer to you!
There are some amazing blessings in even the worst circumstances, aren't there? I've been thinking about you guys a whole lot lately!
I don't normally read blogs and I have wanted to hear about you, so this is great that you update. Thinking of you and keiran. I also love the D necklace he got you.... so many daniels in my life (william Daniel, jakob Danielson - that counts as a daniel..... and my dad, daniel and your daniel)
xoxox
You don't know me, but I'm friends with Julie and Zac Chatterton. My heart breaks for you and what you are going through. I have gone through some similar experiences this year as well. If you ever want to talk, vent, or cry let me know. It was a comfort to me talking to other people who have lost a child. You will be in my prayers.
Bethany
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